i played a role
to serve other people
and i seemed to fulfil what they needed
because they sought after more -
more of an act i could not be satisfied with -
it felt uncomfortable to lie so easily
and yet people seemed to care so much for 
this character - and so little for the person behind it 
because when i showed glimpses
of the real me
they showed disinterest 
perhaps i should have realised sooner 
it was what they could get 
for their own amusement -
my compliant character meant that i blended in so well
that i strayed so far from my true self.

Kate ©