Hi all. Hope you are well.
This week I have been typing up the contents of 3 different notebooks. Poems I have written in the past 5 years. You know sometimes you write in a notebook and then shelf the notebook and never look at it again? So when you do, eventually open that notebook, you get a pleasant surprise at re-reading some of the poems. They are not too bad! Certainly some things to work on in there. I am planning to submit some of these poems to lit mags but there are some I am going to post here on my blog, the more poems in progress. That I need to work on.
I have unsubscribed from emails this week that I don’t read. I let all of these emails pile up in my inbox. I don’t read them and I don’t delete them either. Some emails have been read but I don’t engage with them or follow that person or product anymore, so I might scan the email but I don’t take any of it in. I also logged out of some of my social media apps because, again, I scroll and scroll and I don’t think I’m taking in the content that I am seeing. I feel as if I am looking at the same photos, quotes, reels etc. constantly and they don’t have any kind of effect at the moment. I’m wondering how much more time I would have in the morning or in the evening if I wasn’t disengaged. Maybe if I was reading one of the many books on my TBR list instead. Being more intentional with my time. And I think if I’m editing my own poetry at the moment, I need to concentrate on that and not be taking in other people’s work. I just need to focus on whatever I am trying to say or communicate.
I do feel as if I am trying to numb out of my life right now but I’m struggling to do that because I don’t actually want to. I want to be creative. It’s that trust, isn’t it? When you’re facing change, but what you are used to settling for is very much still breathing down your neck.
For those who are curious